I realize no one reads this but… This the end all be all time in my life. I either rough it out or just let it all go. Lately I feel as if… Nothing matters any more. I can’t live a life I don’t want. Every morning I wake up feeling nothing but pain just the thought of trying to pull myself through another day of endless pain and emptiness. I use to contemplate, how easy it would be just to cease existing. But i found motivation by finding people I could somewhat relate to, or just have them lend an ear for awhile. But in my stupidity, I always a slap on a hippy happy fucking retarded face, trying to hide that whats really happening is destroying what I tried to strive for… I always thought, you know what if I make it out through this early condemned period of life… I may be able to help the world, looking at a big picture. But I don’t have ANY motivation to even wake up to do anything. Nothing matters, school, does shit, they have no respect for those who wish to pursue a better life without stupid math topics that have no meaning or placed in classes that make you want to cut out your soul. I can’t find reasons to support myself… I just… Need a break… Take a day off from school… I just want to talk it out and just let everything go for the day… The only reason to live right now is not disappointing a really close friend, I mean I didn’t promise her anything and lately we haven’t been talking but, she helps me get through these recent days thinking, knowing someone will be there to, if anything, listen for awhile. I just can’t… But as always I’ll probably drag this body out, just to satisfy a goal.. Currently unachievable…
This is white privilege. Period.
I’m going to fucking throw up.
In the clip, a white kid uses a variety of tools, including a metal saw and even an electric saw with goggles to try to cut through the chain on a bike. Most people walk by without caring, only one woman tries to follow up with the police. In the second part of the clip, an african-american kid about the same age does the same thing in the same park with the same bike, and is accosted by angry crowds, people taking out their cell phones to call 911, even a guy who starts taking his tools away while yelling.
The contrast is striking. And sickening.
Disgusting and yet unsurprising.
This is just….wow.
This is absolutely disgusting
PLEASE READ THIS IT’S IMPORTANT:
Everyone, I need your help. THIS IS AN EMERGENCY. The girl in the striped sweater is my best friend, ohfxckitscarlie. Earlier she was contemplating suicide but no one actually took her seriously. Just a few minutes ago, her sister posted on Facebook for everyone to pray for her she’s hurt really bad and going to the hospital. I didn’t know what was going on, so I asked her. Carlie shot her self and she needs people praying that she will make it. I don’t want to lose my best friend, and I know her sister feels the same way. Carlie is all this girl has left of her family and she needs her more than anything. So PLEASE, all I’m asking is for people to reblog this and pray that she will be fine.
Random thoughts right now.
If Cinderella’s shoe fit perfectly, why did it fall off?
What is another word for a thesaurus?
If you’re underwater, would you be able to cry?
Why do feet smell and noses run?
If you expect the unexpected, won’t the unexpected be the expected?
(Source: mikmaaac)
Sleep Deprivation!
Well, It would Seem as if I’m still awake after… oh About since 5 PM Yesterday, Now, about 8. I realize that, not only am I, Cranky, but I’m also Insane. I Cannot sit still, shaking my legs and literally reading this outloud as I Type. Quite interesting ain’t it? And according to my brother, I’m Crazy… but what do you expect from an asian a junior in high school… Apparently I also feel quite High, Donno Why, But that rhymes… so I guess that works… Sitting here amused at this post, I find myself wondering why i’m even on tumblr, but I made it a promise to try and blog my experiences.(Note: Im still Actually Reading this Out loud). Unfortunately I may become seriously Brain Dead, after posting this, I literally Feel my Head Floating away. I keep saying to myself, ” Oh Geez, Gotta sleep early to get an early start!” Yeah But That only works if your sane… which obviously i’m not. After reaching a point, oh about 4 am, I decide that sleeping would be pointless as I’ve already exhausted my period to get a decent sleep in the darkness of the night. OH! and my senses have increased 10 fold! yet Whatever anyone tells me now, will come out the other side of my ear, I might not even remember typing this. But Yeah, I’ve explained my thoughts for now, which isn’t alot, but I will Depart on the note that I will probably be face down on my keyboard In a few seconds…
U N I C O R N O R E G A M I
what dreams are made of
